I have come to realise that I am so worried about everything that I have forgotten to relax.
So in post-appraisal rage, I decided to take 2 days off for myself. Just me. Will do whatever I want.
Today started out well.
Getting up late. Seeing fiance off when he goes off to work.
Breakfast - 1 apple, 2 chotu bananas
Some chatting on gtalk with friends. Sending off resumes and making phone calls.
Then cutting up loads of veggies and mixing it up with leftover dal and some masalas to make something yummy. Hearty lunch. Started reading 'East of Eden'.
Then some high tension moments of dealing with workers, supervisors and maintanence managers. 3 hours of pointless conversations. Then I decide to drop it. Whatever, doood. Peace to all earthlings.
Had a hot shower, welcomed fiance back with a kiss. Now chilling after having ordered dinner and waitng for friends to join me.
Maybe tomorrow, the taking it easy part will be better, with practice.
Apr 22, 2010
Apr 13, 2010
In the throes of lust
Currently lusting after:
The towering mountains of Bhutan
A trip along the Yangtse
A chance to shop in the furniture warehouses outside Shanghai
LG refridgerator - 16k
Sony Bravia 32" wall mounted television
a 1 TB hard disk
Tata sky plus connection
4 Mbps internet connection
Thats all. Simple, thats me.
The towering mountains of Bhutan
A trip along the Yangtse
A chance to shop in the furniture warehouses outside Shanghai
LG refridgerator - 16k
Sony Bravia 32" wall mounted television
a 1 TB hard disk
Tata sky plus connection
4 Mbps internet connection
Thats all. Simple, thats me.
Apr 5, 2010
I am here to discuss Fear
What makes you insecure?
What makes you scared?
What makes you want to run without even waiting to put your shoes on?
I will go first.
1. That I will die without ever getting that job that I want and enjoying a day at work
2. That I will die without having ever raised a child
3. That I will never get to see all the places that I want to go to
4. That I will be crippled and not be a full person
5. That He will stop loving me and I will never know it
6. That I will never be desired sexually by women
7. That I will be raped brutally
And hordes of other things like stray dogs, cats, creepy crawlies, being mauled to death in a forest, dying of heart attack etc.
What are yours?
Why are we afraid? Does not Fear take away something from you?
What to do about it?
What makes you scared?
What makes you want to run without even waiting to put your shoes on?
I will go first.
1. That I will die without ever getting that job that I want and enjoying a day at work
2. That I will die without having ever raised a child
3. That I will never get to see all the places that I want to go to
4. That I will be crippled and not be a full person
5. That He will stop loving me and I will never know it
6. That I will never be desired sexually by women
7. That I will be raped brutally
And hordes of other things like stray dogs, cats, creepy crawlies, being mauled to death in a forest, dying of heart attack etc.
What are yours?
Why are we afraid? Does not Fear take away something from you?
What to do about it?
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